I don’t care what you think about me. I don’t think about you at all. – Coco Channel
Thursday, 25 October 2012
The one that got away
So today I
heard from someone that this friend of mine is coming to visit in November. We
actually don't keep in touch anymore and this really saddens me. We've known
each other for at least 7 years and we've been through a lot together. I really
liked her it was like we were alike and when I was with her its like I was back
to childhood, I mean I was like an innocent little girl with no worries at all.
We laughed, we cried, we broke rules together, we ditched classes together
& so much more.
Back in the first
years of school we were a group of 4 girls, and as time when by we reached to 7
girls and we were like best friends, we were always together and even the
teachers pointed that out. We all knew that when high school would come to an
end we would be scattered and it
eventually happened. 2 of them went to Australia , 1 went to a university near
my home, the other 1 is working and 3 of us went to the same uni which is CTI.
Even before going to Australia that friend had cut all means of communication with me and that saddest part
is that i don't even know the reason why. What frustrates me is that i did so
much for her, i always stood by her even when others did not and in the end i
was back-stabbed. I really really miss her, and I don't know if I wanna see her
when she comes back or not. Not even once she talked to me since she went and
even though i wished her happy birthday she did not even say thank you!!!
I love
photos!! Because the best thing about them is, they will never change even when
the people in them change :) what i hate the most is the fact that i always
look back at the pictures and think about the wonderful time we had and somehow
i wish that nothing would have changed and then again now im more careful about
people i trust and i call friend.Nostalgia can be such a bitch sometimes.
Anyways im
still thankful to have the others in my life, we always keep in touch even if
its not often.. but i kinda miss the one that got away :) People always leave.
Don't worry, you get used to it and most importantly, learn to deal with it.
but then again I am auto-phobic.
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I love this post ...for several reasons! But the main reason why I love it is because I can relate to it - oh so well. I agree that it is hard to keep in touch. I am horrible at keeping in touch YET sometimes, even if it's once every 3 years, it's always nice to send a message to the people you were once close to ...not for old time's sake but for the sake of all those memories you shared together. But well I always say that ...the people who can't make time for you in their lives surely don't deserve to be in your life in the first place!
ReplyDeleteBonne Continuation <3 xx
Thank you, but i must say i was inspired by your blog a long time ago and that's why i decided to create a blog for myself and also its nice to let go of everything that's been pilling up inside me in my writings :) & i totally agree with you, once in a while its good to send a message to people with whom you once had a great time cause if you have memories with these people it means that they once counted for you right? anyway thank you again for reading and continue to write, i love your blog :D
ReplyDeletetake care ♥
You write about things that certainly matter to you.
ReplyDeleteAnd what you wrote just here amazed me. You are thankful but also disappointed, what is the outside chance of finding a friend like you?
But may I say that I found a downside to this note. You still remember the good memories with this friend, but how about the cheap ones? Isn't it true that life is made up of two paths? On your right is the good one and the one on your left is just darkness. They both converge to form a tree. Don't you find the Cherry Blossom tree amazing? It comes in full blossom in autumn and continues still, till winter. The Cherry Blossom explains how life is. If it were not to bloom in winter it would be just like the other trees. Don't be like them, go into your deep blossom in winter but do not forget why you are the Cherry Blossom Tree.
Dig into your past and bethink why this friend decided not to talk to you anymore. There is always a reason why people decide not to talk to you. Or is it maybe you misinterpreted the situation. Mistakes happen.
It has always been and still remains that people would write notes or letters intead of confronting the person. Does that make them feel better? Does that make YOU feel better? Knowing that the person to whom you are writing this note, won't ever read it? Does that change anything in the situation?
Can you still look at the person and tell him that you are his friend, even after writing a note like this?
But like Oprah Winfrey said, “True forgiveness is when you can say, "Thank you for that experience.”. This is what I did, each and every time I said "Thank you", it was for the sake of forgiveness and Friendship.
What are the odds that I accidentally came across this note?
Have a Happy life my dearest friend.
heyy :) thank you for taking the time to read this post :) i don't know where you're from but it really pleased me that you took the time to comment :) i am really thankful for the time i had with that friend, because she contributed into what i am today , but im disappointed because i never thought our friendship would 'end'like this.Am actually mad at her because she never took the time to keep in touch.And i love the methaphor about the Cherry tree and i do agree with you and also i digged into the past many times wondering what i could have done to drive that friend away, and fact is i don't know what i've done wrong & i even asked my friends around me. Maybe i changed or maybe she changed ? and yes mistakes happens but you do not repeat the mistakes several times ..right? as i said in the post, i did keep in touch with her but it was only a one way thing instead of being a two way thing. i actually wrote that post because i wanted to release all the frustration i had and it did make me feel better but as you suggested talking to the person face to face is better but i know i won't be able to express myself properly as a lot of crying will happen :p i am willing to say 'thank you' to her and i am willing to forgive her and then again am scared that i lose her once more because she will be going back to australia but i will definetly will try to talk things out when she is will come for the hols :)
ReplyDeletethank you again and hope to hear from you again :)
have a blessed life.
I thought you were different. That you would not think like all the people out there. But guess what? You are exactly like them, you are judging me for what you hear from others. Great, it's as if we're all traveling back to high school. I am so fed up of these fights, what's the use? You guys didn't change a bit.
ReplyDeleteWhy can't you be happy for me as I finally found happiness? What is so wrong with you? I was the one who wrote on your wall so many times. I sent you many messages and I never forgot your birthday but then it was always me coming to you first, and I thought that maybe you didn't want to talk to me anymore.
You guys did not change a bit, you shall always talk behind my back, always judge me. As for me, what happened in the past, is all in the past. I knew gail was going to show you the email I sent her because that's all she does, spread the shit everywhere. I am really sorry Elvina but I have more important things to think about. Too bad our friendship is ending like this but you did not even try to understand WHY things went this way. Guess I thought you were different from them. Keep on being influenced by what they say.
Good bye Elvina :).
I am different, because i gave you so many chances to come back and i don't know for the others but i always hoped things would get better...ALWAYS.. but instead you kept walking away. and im not judging you for who you are or what you do, i respect that, its your life. i judge you for what you did to me. you say that that we didn't change?? ohh dear, on the contrary, we are the one who actually grew up. i thought you would grow up when you finally got "away from us".but i can't see the difference even if i tried too. I am happy for you and your happiness but you never even bothered to share you "happiness" with us. we never hear anything from you and you said you keep in touch ?? my god i was the one who always made the first move and i can prove it, you always on go and advertise on everyone's wall but what about the people who always supported you ?? NOTHING!!! and guess what, thats why i stopped writing on your wall to see if you cared enough to come and try to make things right. but then again..NOTHING!!! and you know what?im happy Gail showed that mail and its not called 'spreading the shit', its called informing and you should learn the difference and also it involved us.(who's talking behind who's back,huh?) and you know what i was really shocked by what you wrote about US and that mail triggered something in me. i realized that all these years of friendship was bullshit to YOU and that you used us only to get through your high school days. and HOW DARE you call us hypocrites or fake people? was it us who always found comfort in others ONLY when we were mad with each other ?? NO IT WAS YOU!!! please open your eyes, if we were really hypocrites or fake or whatever you call us, we would not even be talking to each other, instead you are the only one who's not talking to us, you think people is talking about you ?? its all in your head cause really we have much better things to do and also i thought you never gave a shit about what people thought about you, so what happened here? you are the on who changed , right? you said "too bad our friendship is ending like this".. but was there any friendship at all ? i used to think there was, but all these flopped when i read your mail.and why do i have to understand why things went this way if you never even told me to begin with? im not influenced by what is said by others, i never was and never will. instead im influenced by what i saw and what i experienced.
Deletetke care.